Life is never still. Changes, big or small, are always a part of our lives whether we like it or not. Since I last posted on this blog I've been through a major transition and am now poised on the brink of another. I moved back to Canada for four months for my home assignment. As great as it was to be back in my home country with family and friends, it was a bit overwhelming too. It was difficult in the little things like trying to drive on the proper side of the road or making a decision of what to buy at the grocery store. When you have had little or no choice for so long too many choices can cripple you. It was also difficult adjusting back in more major ways such as fitting in to a busy way of life and trying to connect again with friends whose lives had gone in different directions than mine. In spite of all these areas where I faced reverse culture shock, I adjusted back after a couple months and really enjoyed living in Canada again.
However in less than two weeks I face another major transition. I will be leaving Canada and moving back to Tanzania. Having just recovered from my last move this next one is producing mixed emotions. I have rediscovered all that I love about my life in Canada and am reluctant to leave it. At the same time I miss my friends and work in Tanzania and am eager to rejoin them. What do I do when both of my worlds are pulling at me and I'm not sure where I belong anymore?
Although I don't have all the answers one thing I know is that I need to live in this moment right now. I may not see my family and friends for a long time once I leave but I can enjoy my time with them right now. And although I am missing out on the work in Tanzania I can stop worrying about it and know that in time I will be back there again. There is no point in worrying about one world when i am in the other. I just have to enjoy where I am and know that despite all the changes coming, God is the one constant in my life. He is faithful and so I can face whatever transitions the future holds.
